Hi there! I’m so sorry you’re depressed. I know how feelings can be tied to your weight. I am so glad that my story inspired you. That’s why I share it. Losing weight has been one of the best things I have EVER done for myself, and for my future self. When I found those pants, it was like a piece of my past coming back to remind me who I used to be. I can’t ever forget that girl. I will answer your questions in the next ask.