Lincoln Half W2, D4 Easy 3. Target 12:05-12:55, Actual 12:00

I was going to run this morning. But I overslept so that didn’t happen. So After work it was. It was a decent run. 3 miles, non-stop. I was listening to my latest song obsessions and generally having a decent run. I like that.

I was all set to tell you that I’ve been in a pretty bleak body head-space lately. I feel very out of control because I don’t know why I gained the 10 pounds I did last year. I didn’t change any of my eating habits. And yes, I will agree some of it is muscle…but not all of it. I’ve kept up my running and I eat generally well, so this loss of control has me feeling awful. I don’t like it. 

And then my roommate, the sweet girl that she is, in the middle of a conversation about something completely unrelated, said to me, “you look really skinny.”

It was totally out of the blue, and I was inwardly thinking, My gut is pushing out more than before. My hips and thighs are HUGE and my butt is so jiggly, I’m so gross. Hand to God. Those thoughts were streaming through my head at that exact moment. And then she said that. And it was like a weight had been lifted. I’m strong, I’m powerful, I’m a woman. And I’ve lost an ENTIRE HUMAN BEING in weight off my body. Get it together Melissa. You are NOT gross. You are fine. The world doesn’t see all of your imperfections like you do with such a close up microscope. Get over yourself. Sheesh.

And it also helps, that as I was getting the mail out of the mailbox (which is right next to the street which is a busy street here in Lincoln) a man double honked and waved at me from his car! Hey guys! I’ve still got it! Even dressed as Nanook of the North!! 😉

In other news, I think I accidentally agreed to a date for Saturday night! Whoops! And no, it’s not with the new guy from the wedding! I’ll keep you posted.

As my co-worker says, The most random things really do just *happen to me!

Happy Friday Eve (as fromlazytolively says!) 🙂