He had a lot of thoughts on my issues (female and otherwise)
- As I have suspected, my female issues are likely tied to my weight. Real talk: I lost 150 pounds. The doctor then told me that I needed to gain some back (I was scary thin) I gained back about 10 pounds and remained there through a lot of constant vigilance for about 3 years.
- I slowly gained 30 pounds over the course of 4 years. It kills me to type that. Overall, I am still down more than 110 pounds but I have 20-30 pounds that I need to lose. AGAIN.
- I am tall, so I gain weight everywhere–legs, face, butt, everywhere. So it isn’t too obvious and I really only went up one size in clothes. But I can feel it and I see it and it sucks.
- I have been trying desperately to lose this weight since October. I have gained and lost the same 3 pounds. I have hired a nutritionist and she has tweaked my calories and macros a bunch of times and nothing really works. I go down a bit, and then go back up. To say I am frustrated is an understatement.
- The Doc thinks that because I lost the weight previously, my body is now operating at a lower metabolic rate. Because it figured out how to burn calories more efficiently when I was thinner, my metabolism is now lower than it was before. So that sucks.
- The weight gain appears to be the reason my cycle is out of whack and awful. Because fat produces estrogen. Oh joy.
- So, get the weight off, get the cycle under control? That’s the goal. I am finally back working out consistently–I’ve been running in the mornings before work again and doing my pushups as well. I also am occasionally spinning after work too. Just trying to make that metabolism get moving.
- I basically stopped running in 2015, took up spinning for about 6 months last year, and haven’t done much consistently until these past few months when I bought my treadmill. So I am trying to learn some grace with myself. The weight didn’t go back on overnight, and it won’t come off that fast either. But it still pains me to say that I gained weight back.
I’m not going to dwell on this. I am going to fight for myself. That’s all I can do, right? And if I want to like how I look in my wedding dress (going shopping soon!!) then I better do something about it, instead of wishing and hoping.
Thanks for listening, friends!
Runnin' Down a Dream 