After a day full of crappy headspace I came home to a couple of packages in the mail!

First, my Beat the Blerch virtual race kit! Stickers, magnet, shirt, awesome medal and more! I’m a fan! I’m counting the Omaha half in a couple of weeks as that virtual half. 1 race, two medals, total win!

Then, I opened my brand new Samsung Galaxy S5! I have yet to activate it and need a new SIM Card, but still, exciting!

After that I discovered a save the date for a friends wedding in June…in Cabo San Lucas! I’m going to see if that’s feasible, because how fun would that be?!

Think before you speak

I had dinner with a college friend last night. She’s a personal trainer at a local gym. I told her how lately I’ve been in a pretty rough head space; my weight is still up, I can’t seem to do anything right to make it go down, eating ANYTHING is suddenly very stressful to me (that’s another story for another post). Suffice it to say, I’m feeling pretty awful about myself right now.

She was asking me about my eating and workout habits. I told her what I eat and how I workout. Then she pushed me into crazytown with her next comment:

“You know Melissa, you’re a big girl. You just are. So you’ll always be bigger.”

I’m sorry, what?! Just because I’m 5’9" does NOT make me a “big” girl. Yes, I’m up about 10-15 pounds from where I’d like to be. But 5 of those are water weight (you can’t gain 5 pounds in 2 days. Even I know this). And I weigh 165 pounds. I wear anywhere from a size 6 to a size 10. Geez. 

Talk about a good way to send someone into a tailspin. I’m already freaking out about my body; how it feels and looks, looking decent in a fitted bridesmaid dress in a month, and running a half marathon in 2 weeks. I don’t need someone to push me over the ledge when I’m quite capable of doing that myself, thankyouverymuch!

harmph.

Her advice? Up my protein, limit my fruit intake, lift weights, and write down what I eat again. Things I know to do. (although I really like fruit, so that kind of sucks.)

Lessons learned here? Think before you speak, you never know the impact your words can have on another person.

Friiii-day!

The I’m-spending money-like-I-have-it Edition.

  • I bought a new cell phone today. I’ve been eligible to upgrade since January. I like my Droid Razr. I’m fairly resistant to change. BUT the battery won’t make it through the day and I need something more reliable. So I bought a Samsung Galaxy S5. I hope it’s as awesome as people say. I hate spending money.
  • I’m taking my nephew to the Husker football game tomorrow. Should be fun. He’s nearly 8 years old and loves Husker football. I’ve already got him drinking the Kool-Aid. Love that kid. But those tickets will still cost me a chunk of change.
  • Tonight I’m going to Omaha for the First Friday walks in Benson. I’m pumped. I really can’t spend any more money because I have to remember that I don’t get paid every 2 weeks anymore. This once a month thing is going to be hard to get used to.
  • Busy weekend ahead. I’m already tired. 

Have a good one friends!

Tuesday Things

  • During my run tonight I hit shuffle on my iPod. A dangerous game when you have Christmas music on there too! I was rewarded with some quality Mary J. Blige and Josie and The Pussycats, “Spin Around”. Excellent choices iPod.
  • I’m only on day 3 of my new shoes, but I always forget that I have to break my feet into my shoes, not the other way around. I’ve got ginormous blisters on the backs of my heels. Ouch. I was concerned about 2 miles in that my shoes were filling up with blood. It hurt less to run than walk so run I did. It was a decent run, even though I KNOW I had a pained expression on my face.
  • Next week I’m going to be House Sitting for a B&B. It’s owned my a former co-worker at the Ocho and her husband. Should be easy money and they have a hot tub! She told me I can use it, and eat and drink whatever I want! Even throw a party or two…as long as I don’t burn the house down! I will have guests 2 nights, but otherwise, should be a quiet week. 
  • I was discussing the upcoming month in schedules with my mom. I’m booked pretty solid starting Friday until the second week in October. Geez!! Bachelorette parties (2), weddings (2), a half marathon (1), a trip to the Twin Cities for the Marathon (95% sure on that one!) a trip to Denver, and countless other daily life adventures that I can’t plan for. I’m already tired.
  • That doesn’t take into account a social life. I’m still trying to have one of those too. Maybe even date? We shall see…
  • I’ve been gone from the Ocho for a month now. So crazy. You know that quote that says something like “day after day everything seems the same, and then suddenly you look back and everything has changed?” That’s my life. So many changes. I think they’re all basically good. Some may not seem that way right now, but I know God’s plan for me is good.

I’m off to bed friends! That 4:20am alarm rings awfully early! 

You just need to find your people.
‘Find my people?’
Your tribe.
You know, you spend your whole life feeling like you don’t quite fit in anywhere. And then you walk into a room one day, whether it’s at university or an office or some kind of club, and you just go, ‘Ah, there they are.’ And suddenly you feel at home.

Jojo Moyes, One Plus One

This spoke to me. You are all my people. My tribe. My chosen family. And I am so grateful that 3+ years ago I decided to spill my guts on the internet. I’ve met some wonderful people because of that choice. Cheers to this wild ride.