• I paid for my groceries and items at Target today IN CASH! 
• In fact, I paid for Target in exact change AND the rug I thought was $14 on sale was only $6! High Fives all around for Melissa today!
• I got a pre-race sports massage over my lunch hour. My hamstrings and IT bands feel “great” but my back is a mess of tension. Story of my life lady.
• I discovered during my run this morning that if I actually pump my arms instead of just letting them swing there I can 1. go MUCH faster. 2. engage my core. and 3. feel POWERFUL. Why haven’t I been doing this all along? I’m an idiot, apparently.
• I am still up 5 pounds (or a few more, thanks lady stuff!) and I HATE it. I feel uncomfortable in my own skin and it sucks. I feel heavy and I feel unattractive and it feels like there is NOTHING I can do about it. The weight is stubbornly not budging. I am terrified of running the Half on Friday because I don’t want to gain another 5 pounds. It’s stressing me out.
• My mom and her hospital dietitian both think I don’t eat enough calories. I would estimate (as I currently am not tracking calories) that I eat around 1500 to 1800 calories a day. The high number is maybe pushing it. It maybe less. According to the formula and my activity level, she says I should eat 2400 calories on a running day and 1900 on a maintaining day as I burn about 1500 calories a day just existing. I don’t know. It’s hard for me to believe it. I don’t know that I can eat that much without feeling ill. But they think that my body isn’t sure if I will get the calories so it holds onto water and that’s why I’m up those pounds. Science, man.
• I just want to feel comfortable and not fat again. (don’t get me wrong, I know I’m not fat, but I feel desperately uncomfortable. It’s a terrible way to live.)

If you read all of this, High Fives for you! 

Have a good night friends!