Tag: happiness

The past few days my coworkers, friends, and even my massage therapist have told me there’s something different about me. That I seem happier, more mellow. More content. They all attributed it my new relationship. I’m not saying that I was unhappy before the bf came into my life, but just that I have this feeling of being happy and content exactly where I’m at in this moment. And THAT is a nice feeling. 🙂

  • Conversations with two-o-nine. She’s talking about the group Doug and the Slugs. True story: my uncle is in a cover band! He plays guitar and wears sunglasses during the sets. He’s a cool dude. They play “Americana” songs. He invited the bf and I to go to their concert this past Sunday. If it wasn’t such short notice, we were going to go watch him do his thing. 
  • In other news, my massage therapist asked me if I had lost weight. I was surprised, and told her no, not that I really knew of. She said she could see it in my legs and torso. She sees me about once a month, so I’ll go with what she says! But honestly, the scale is about the same. Huh.
  • I ran again this morning before work. Success! It was hard for me to want to get out of bed–but I did it and I’m so glad that I did. It makes such a difference in my day and demeanor when I get a sweat session in before I head to work for the day.
  • Have you had those cream cheese mints at graduations, wedding receptions, etc? Well, I’m obsessed with them. I love love love them. And my coworker who got married last month had them at her wedding. This morning she brought in 2 big bags full of them to share with us. I’m debating how long I have to wait before I have some. (because we all know that I will have some!!) So, so good.

Happy Hump Day friends! Have a good one!

“Happiness is the way”

I had an epiphany last night. I was in bed, saying my prayers before succumbing to a fitful sleep when it happened: I finally realized there is no set “way” to happiness. Happiness IS the way. (Thanks Thich Nhat Hanh)

I was asking God for help. Help finding a better job, one that makes me happier. Finding the love of my life. Because I want that. I want that so much.

All my life I’ve bought into the “if, then” principle. For example: If I lose weight, then I will be happy. If I have a boyfriend, THEN I will be happy. If I run x amount of miles in a week, a year, then I will be happy. 

But that’s not true. Happiness can’t be found somewhere, in something, or someone. It’s inside of you. You must make your own happiness. Do things you love, and love will find you. Do what makes you happy and happiness will come. 

It’s just that easy.

But I fight it. Why do I fight it? Why do I think that I know best? Losing 150 Pounds DID make me happy-that’s true. But it isn’t the root of my happiness. Having a boyfriend (sometimes) makes me happy. 🙂 But I’ve finally realized that I’ve got to be happy being alone before I can be happy with someone else. And I am. I think. (I gotta work on that, I guess!) Then the right one will come along and simply add to my happiness—not be responsible for creating it. Because that is too much weight to place on one person. I need to be happy in the job I’m at now, because that’s where I’m at. I can work on changing that though!

Happiness isn’t found in another person, a better paying job, in the bottom of a bottle, or on a plate of food. It’s not in material or physical things. It’s in the quiet realization that I have everything I need, right here and now. 

What a powerful realization.

“There is no way to happiness, happiness is the way.” -Thich Nhat Hanh

My 1st Blog-iversary!

Today marks 1 year since my very first post! So much has changed and happened in a year. I’ve started this blog, met some pretty amazing people from the internet, ran some races, a Half-Marathon, 5k’s, and a 10k. I’ve reached my goal weight and managed to keep it all off! 150 pounds gone baby! 🙂

I’ve gone places and lived life to the fullest, and isn’t that what its all about? Enjoying this one life that we’ve all been given? Making the most of our time here, spending it with people that we love and doing things that make us happy? Somehow, along the way, running became something that made me happy.

I firmly believe that its changed my life. I went from weighing 295 pounds and being happy on the outside but desperately wanting a change on the inside. To weighing 145 pounds and being happy inside and out. And running did that for me. It helped me become the person that I truly believe I have always meant to become.

I’m so much happier now, so much more confident. I love this feeling! The happiness that I may have only feigned for the outside world I now truly feel. Sure, I have my down days–we all do. Its normal. But, until I figured out that happiness was a journey, not a destination, I wasn’t going to be happy. And that journey includes running.

Its my time. I can be alone with my thoughts, work things out, make sense of my life or even just my day. I can visualize my next race, see how I think its going to go. And sometimes, I just think about how blessed I am. How wonderful this life truly is. I have legs that run and a strong heart that beats.

This is a random post, but it really is how I feel! The countdown is on to my 2nd Half-Marathon this week…1 week from today we hit the road for the Lincoln Half-Marathon!

I hope you all have a great week friends!

“For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin – Real Life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.

At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness.
Happiness is the way.

So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination!”

Souza

Happy Things

Contrary to what it may seem like from my past few days of posts, my life doesn’t suck. So tonight I give you a list of happy things from this week:

  1. On my way home tonight I saw a falling star. It was awesome and lasted a long time before it broke into two pieces and disappeared into the night sky.

  2. I’ve seen maybe 20 falling stars in the past few years. I guess I’m lucky. They’ve always come at a time when I need reassuring that things will get better. I like that.

  3. I went to Loft to look at sweater dresses and left with new black dress pants in a SIZE 6!! Yay baby! NSV!!!

  4. I have some pretty great friends and family. ‘Nuff said.

  5. My back has hurt for 2.5 months. Finally decided to see a Chiropractor today. Back feels FINE. I am amazed!

  6. Tomorrow is Friday. My girlfriends and I are going out.

  7. I think my running mojo is back.

  8. I remembered that my happiness isn’t dependant on someone else. Powerful stuff.

  9. Despite any bad stuff, my life is good.

  10. I will be okay, no matter what, I will survive.

You guys rock

Seriously. I feel the love! I appreciate all your kind words and comments. It means a lot to me.

I’ve had some weird days lately. Last Thursday, when I got into work, I had to scoot out the door, heading west on the Interstate to rendezvous with one of my reporters. She was driving one of our TV station’s car’s out to another city, about 2 hours away, when the transmission died. She was stuck on the side of the road,and needed to get to her story. So I took a working car, and gave her that car, then sat with the dead car while someone else came to get me. Then, when I got back to work, I found a garter snake in the bathroom! I didn’t scream, just calmly told my boss about it, and they took care of it! But eewww! gross! Then, I met Snow White and Dopey. They were in town for a performance of Disney Live! and they were on our midday forum. So I got my picture taken with them!

Yesterday, as I was driving on the highway, I saw a hitchhiker. Today, I got to hold the cutest little dachshund puppy! He was so precious! (My parents have two dachsies!)

I got up and ran this morning. It sucked, but was good to get back into my routine. I saw on spider on the wall near the treadmill. I screamed a few times…as it was too close for comfort! I hate spiders! eeeewwwww..

Tonight, A & I have a date. I’m excited to see him!

Happy Wednesday friends!