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I firmly believe that people are brought into our lives for a reason. Sometimes we find out that reason right away. Sometimes, we have to wait awhile to see the real reason that people come into our lives.

Wednesday, I learned the reason that @victoriafindslife was brought into mine.

As you all know, I’m searching for a new job after being let go from my previous one. Well, Wednesday morning I received a message from Victoria telling me she had a short term job opportunity for me that would possibly help (and her!) out. I eagerly called and long story short found myself scheduling an interview at her company.

Long story short, her company is creating a new Part time position. They need ASAP. They had someone lined up who could no longer do the job. So she spoke to her boss about me. I met with them and he offered me a temporary position to help create the job, write the manual, and help Victoria with whatever she needs. I get to work 30-40 hours a week for very decent pay. They understand that I’m looking for FT work as they are looking for a permanent employee. I can take time to interview and as long we give each other a week’s notice of ending our agreement, we’re good.

I’M SO FREAKING EXCITED YOU GUYS!! I get paid, (YAY MONEY!) It’s better than unemployment would pay me (which I can’t get until November 28th anyway due to my severance). I can go to interviews, I can feel like I’m actually doing SOMETHING as opposed to freeloading off my parents. And I can get into my routine again.

So thank you Victoria!! Thank you for this opportunity and thinking of me. I promise I won’t let you down!!

Another gorgeous day in the heartland! 62° and sunny at 10am. I’m a fan of running when I want to during the day, and that is so nice out right now….so I’ll miss that when this whole unemployment thing ends. And the sleeping in. I’ll miss that too. But I won’t miss the terror of worrying about money. Nothing too much to report on the job front…there are a few things moving but I don’t want to say much until I know more! Fingers crossed and prayers appreciated!

I have amazing friends. @two-o-nine sent me the movie, (we tend to love the same movies and she says this one is the best!) And @sleepruneatrepeat sent me the most thoughtful card! I’m crying you guys! Thank you so much! I feel so loved. I’m still really scared, but I know that things will be ok because I’ve got people like you all on my side!

I am so blessed to have you all in my life. Thank you for all the thoughts, prayers, and messages. I’m going to get through this.

Things that I know for sure

Losing your job is terrifying. Absolutely terrifying. I’m working hard not to get depressed as I apply for jobs and wait to hear from them.
The fact that my former boss had the power to throw my life into a tailspin like this with this action is also scary. I have a lot of anger going on right now.
I had some pretty scary thoughts while out for runs the past two days: I won’t go into detail but suffice it to say that I can see how I could easily slip into a very deep and dark depression because of this.
I crave a routine. Getting up, going to work, and getting out of the house is something that I took for granted. I’m working on making a new routine in the interim.
I have AMAZING friends. YOU GUYS. I would be such a mess without the love and support from all of you and my other friends too! From the messages, calls, texts and all the thoughts and prayers, I am so, so grateful to you all.
I’ve applied for about 25 jobs in the past few days. I’ve called in favors from friends and am just now playing the waiting game. I have no patience so this will be hard.
Good News? My friend that I edit videos for is bringing me a computer and videos today. I make $100/video so with all the free time I will have I can make some decent cash. So that helps.
I’m going to begin to look at part time work if I don’t get any bites soon. Not working would be cool if I knew I would start a new job on a certain day. I just have to have faith and trust that it will all work out. If you pray, please add me to your prayers!

Thanks friends

Is this rock bottom?

I came into work Monday morning and my boss called me into her office. She sat me down and told me that due to the $200,000 that we are in the red, my position was being eliminated and my duties were being assigned to the remaining staff.

The next few moments were surreal; she outlined the severance package: (1 month salary and paying me out my PTO and another month of health insurance), and asked if I had any questions.

Over the roaring sound in my ears, I was able to choke out, “There’s really nothing to say, is there? You’ve made up your mind.”

She said it was a difficult decision and one she did not take lightly. I wholeheartedly disagree: she did not like that I questioned her about the potential office move. The way she treated me after that incident was totally different from how it was before.

I gathered my things and left. She had told all the others to either not come in or to come in late-which I find incredibly shady. I find it odd that this comes only 3 days after I reached my membership and sponsorship goals last week. I was the Membership Director. I think she will find that this was the wrong decision, especially with only a month to go before conference.

I am a mess. An utter mess. A month ago my boyfriend broke up with me. 4 weeks later this happens. I have to have faith that this is part of God’s greater plan for my life, but it is so hard to see that right now.

I’ve applied for several jobs, and have more to go. And you better believe that I’ve already filed for unemployment! They have to pay for doing this to me!

I am worried about money. Rent and a new car payment and other bills scare me. I have a bit of time, but not a lot. If you would all keep me in your thoughts and prayers, I would appreciate it!! Any possible ideas or leads would be appreciated!