I feel like I can view my life from 30,000 feet. Like I can get above the clouds and see the forest for the trees and whatnot. I think that I can actually see several different futures for myself that could happen just by making one decision. I feel like I’m on the edge of the next phase of my life. Like I’m standing on the edge of tomorrow and I just don’t know which tomorrow to pick. Confused? Let me explain…

I am at an incredibly unique crossroads in my career path:

• I can move into Marketing. I have a job that I accepted with a local Marketing firm that starts Nov. 30th.
• I can get back into TV News. I have an interview for a TV News Producer job in Buffalo, New York next Monday. (Stations don’t fly candidates they aren’t really interested in to their station so they likely are very interested in me for this job.)
• On Friday, I was offered an interview for a job with the state of Nebraska in the Department of Health and Human Services as a Public Information Officer. So I would be getting into the PR/Communications Field with this position if I am offered the job.
• And I have turned down 3 interviews with local non-profits (after losing my job at one due to budget cuts, forgive me if I am now a little gun-shy from working for one!)
• I also heard from Creighton University in Omaha. I applied for their Assistant Director of Development. Their Director of Development said they offered the job to someone else, but she was very impressed by my resume and wanted to know if it was ok if she kept me in mind for future jobs because she really wanted to work with me!!

The scary thing is, I can see myself in all of these career fields. I could see myself keeping the marketing firm job and doing well and likely being happy. If I love the station and the News Director, I could see myself getting back into TV News Producing. Even if it is not in Buffalo. But I could see the potential of moving there and changing my whole life…even if my mother would hate it! 

And then there’s the state job. You guys. This is the kind of job that I tried to get for years while I was at the Ocho. State jobs are highly sought after, they are the kind of interview that you DO NOT turn down. State benefits, all federal holidays (including Arbor Day because that was started in Nebraska, so duh, its a state holiday here!) and the security that comes from working for the state? Yes please. And this is the kind of job that I think is the natural progression for someone who has worked in TV News for a decade plus…Disseminating information and writing press releases? I can do that in my sleep!

And then there’s the potential of the development and non profit jobs. I can do those too. I know that I am in a very unique situation. That I am incredibly lucky to have all these choices and options–let alone a secured job and another that I’m temping at. I do not take that lightly.

So here I am, stressed out now because I have too many choices. If I’m being honest with myself and you guys, the Buffalo job is likely mine if I want it and don’t price myself too high for them. The question remains do I want to move that far away from my family? Do I want to get back into TV? I just don’t know.

I know that ultimately I have to make the decision myself (IF I get the other offers, but I like to think of every eventuality and be prepared) but sometimes it’s just nice to lay things out on paper (so to speak) and see it in black and white. Maybe then the answer will come?