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Think before you speak

I had dinner with a college friend last night. She’s a personal trainer at a local gym. I told her how lately I’ve been in a pretty rough head space; my weight is still up, I can’t seem to do anything right to make it go down, eating ANYTHING is suddenly very stressful to me (that’s another story for another post). Suffice it to say, I’m feeling pretty awful about myself right now.

She was asking me about my eating and workout habits. I told her what I eat and how I workout. Then she pushed me into crazytown with her next comment:

“You know Melissa, you’re a big girl. You just are. So you’ll always be bigger.”

I’m sorry, what?! Just because I’m 5’9" does NOT make me a “big” girl. Yes, I’m up about 10-15 pounds from where I’d like to be. But 5 of those are water weight (you can’t gain 5 pounds in 2 days. Even I know this). And I weigh 165 pounds. I wear anywhere from a size 6 to a size 10. Geez. 

Talk about a good way to send someone into a tailspin. I’m already freaking out about my body; how it feels and looks, looking decent in a fitted bridesmaid dress in a month, and running a half marathon in 2 weeks. I don’t need someone to push me over the ledge when I’m quite capable of doing that myself, thankyouverymuch!

harmph.

Her advice? Up my protein, limit my fruit intake, lift weights, and write down what I eat again. Things I know to do. (although I really like fruit, so that kind of sucks.)

Lessons learned here? Think before you speak, you never know the impact your words can have on another person.

Friiii-day!

The I’m-spending money-like-I-have-it Edition.

  • I bought a new cell phone today. I’ve been eligible to upgrade since January. I like my Droid Razr. I’m fairly resistant to change. BUT the battery won’t make it through the day and I need something more reliable. So I bought a Samsung Galaxy S5. I hope it’s as awesome as people say. I hate spending money.
  • I’m taking my nephew to the Husker football game tomorrow. Should be fun. He’s nearly 8 years old and loves Husker football. I’ve already got him drinking the Kool-Aid. Love that kid. But those tickets will still cost me a chunk of change.
  • Tonight I’m going to Omaha for the First Friday walks in Benson. I’m pumped. I really can’t spend any more money because I have to remember that I don’t get paid every 2 weeks anymore. This once a month thing is going to be hard to get used to.
  • Busy weekend ahead. I’m already tired. 

Have a good one friends!

Tuesday Things

  • During my run tonight I hit shuffle on my iPod. A dangerous game when you have Christmas music on there too! I was rewarded with some quality Mary J. Blige and Josie and The Pussycats, “Spin Around”. Excellent choices iPod.
  • I’m only on day 3 of my new shoes, but I always forget that I have to break my feet into my shoes, not the other way around. I’ve got ginormous blisters on the backs of my heels. Ouch. I was concerned about 2 miles in that my shoes were filling up with blood. It hurt less to run than walk so run I did. It was a decent run, even though I KNOW I had a pained expression on my face.
  • Next week I’m going to be House Sitting for a B&B. It’s owned my a former co-worker at the Ocho and her husband. Should be easy money and they have a hot tub! She told me I can use it, and eat and drink whatever I want! Even throw a party or two…as long as I don’t burn the house down! I will have guests 2 nights, but otherwise, should be a quiet week. 
  • I was discussing the upcoming month in schedules with my mom. I’m booked pretty solid starting Friday until the second week in October. Geez!! Bachelorette parties (2), weddings (2), a half marathon (1), a trip to the Twin Cities for the Marathon (95% sure on that one!) a trip to Denver, and countless other daily life adventures that I can’t plan for. I’m already tired.
  • That doesn’t take into account a social life. I’m still trying to have one of those too. Maybe even date? We shall see…
  • I’ve been gone from the Ocho for a month now. So crazy. You know that quote that says something like “day after day everything seems the same, and then suddenly you look back and everything has changed?” That’s my life. So many changes. I think they’re all basically good. Some may not seem that way right now, but I know God’s plan for me is good.

I’m off to bed friends! That 4:20am alarm rings awfully early! 

Football Friday Five:

  1. Please ignore the derpy look I have on my face. I was stealthily sneaking this selfie in my new office (which is still the current Membership Director’s Office as she retires at the end of the year.) But, College football is finally upon us! I’m back on the University of Nebraska-Lincoln campus (Go Huskers!) and it’s a long holiday weekend. Wins all around. AND we’re leaving at 2pm today. Hooray!
  2. Today is also payday. And it’s my first payday at my new job with my new raise. Hello happy and flush bank account! 🙂 
  3. On that note, I’m going to buy my new running shoes after work today. Most likely these beautiful creatures in blue. Can’t wait.
  4. I think I’m ready to jump back into the dating pool again. It has been 3 months since I last dated anyone. I think I’m ready to try again.
  5. September looks to be very, very busy. I’m excited for it.

New Job Update

I’ve been asked about how the new job is going. And I realized that I haven’t told you guys how the past two weeks have been going, my bad!

  • New Job is great. I’m the Membership Director for a National Non-Profit that supports honors students at colleges and universities around the country. Its a big job, but I’m pretty excited about it.
  • There is still so much to learn. And we’re getting a brand new membership database next month, so I have to learn the old AND the new! Stress! 
  • Things are ever-evolving at work and so there are new things being thrown at me and new responsibilities. It’s exciting. They really seem to value me, and my skill set. 
  • It is COMPLETELY outside of my wheelhouse of what I went to school to do; TV News Producing. However, I feel like I have the skills to be awesome at it.
  • I work 7am to 4pm. Some pretty sweet hours. HOWEVER, they are hard to make work for someone who likes to run outside before work in the morning. Currently, it is much too dark at 5am so I’m running on the treadmill. It’s not ideal, but it will do.
  • And speaking of that, who am I? I willingly set my alarm to get me up at 4:50am so I’m on the treadmill by 5:10ish (because, let’s be honest, I hit the snooze and have to wake up before I can bang out 3+ miles in the morning!)
  • I’ve been running outside some in the afternoons too (when it’s not fires-of-hades hot outside) which it currently is.
  • On that note, I got a Fitbit this week. I did the Flex and I love it. I like the silent alarms, and I am OBSESSED with tracking and getting my steps in. I talked on the phone with my friend Andrew for 45 minutes the other night. I paced the entire house while we spoke and managed to get another mile in! My roomie came home in the midst of that and was concerned that I was nervous about who I was talking to! Nope, just trying to be more active.
  • I’ve hit my 10,000 goal so far each day this week. I even go for walks at lunch and pace around the office. (We’re located in one of the Residence Halls on The University of Nebraska-Lincoln campus). So I see a lot of students all day long.
  • I don’t want to jinx it, but the steps and watching what I eat seems to be working; as I am down 4 pounds! Ideally, I’d like to lose 11 more, but I will be happy if I can get 6 more off. Baby steps.
  • Big weekend ahead; dinner for my ex-coworker who is leaving The Ocho today, pool time and a hair cut tomorrow, and then tennis with my bestie on Sunday. Busy, busy. 
  • COLLEGE FOOTBALL SEASON STARTS NEXT WEEK!!!!!  I love my Huskers! Go Big Red!!

Wednesday things:

  • Day 3 of my new job. There is still so much to learn! I’m working 7am-4pm. Those hours are rough when you are used to 8:45am-5:45pm and getting to run before work in the mornings! It is dark outside when I’m up at 5:30am so I’ve been running after work; which I HATE, but I’m dealing.
  • There are some amazing perks; the salary, the iPad, A LOT less stress than working in TV News, opportunities for continuing education, extended time off, and flexible boss. And I’m on back on my College campus (The University of Nebraska-Lincoln, GO HUSKERS!!) 
  • I had to pickup my parking pass today. The office is near Memorial Stadium so I took a walk there to grab it before lunch. It was a gorgeous day!! Football season is right around the corner.
  • We have an annual Conference (I work for a non-profit that supports Honors students and faculty around the world) in Denver in November. We booked our flights today–I’ll be in Denver November 1st-9th. Any area Tumblrs–I’d love to meet up at some point! Message me!
  • I resisted Froyo tonight. The struggle you guys! They had $4 all you can fill (no matter how much it weighed) cups. I love my Froyo place. I resisted it. It’s a first step, right?
  • That being said, I’m unhappy with my body right now. I’m still up 5-7lbs. I feel squishy. So I’m trying new things. Will report back soon,
  • If you read all of this, then High Fives for you!!!

New job excitement!
I had a great first day…they had me come in at noon, did a few things with the new system, got a university ID, they sent me an edible arrangement of fruit, then they gave me my own iPad Mini (!) and went to get a parking permit at 3:45pm! Less than 4hours AND I get paid for the whole day? Awesome! This pic was taken on my brand new iPad!

Thanks for all the well wishes! I’m really excited about this new position!

My current view.

After a busy day of church, running, grocery shopping, laundry, yoga, and more laundry, I’m treating myself to a little R & R before Monday comes and with it, my first day at my new job! (eeek!) I’m currently lounging in my backyard, reading magazines as the sun mixes with clouds. (BTW, autocorrect changed “clouds” to “vodka”. Not right now autocorrect, thanks though!)

Thanks for the kind words about the wedding post. That friend was NOT drunk…just pregnant! Maybe that hindered her judgment? Glad to know you are all on my side….and that some of you have experienced the same type of thing! (well, I’m not GLAD about that! But you know what I mean!)

It’s a Sunday-funday indeed.