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You all are amazing

I’m serious. I know I put a lot of myself out there for you to read/see and you are such wonderful people that you respond so well, especially when I need it the most. You have made me feel better about the situation. I don’t know what I’m going to do yet, but still I feel better about feeling how I feel. He and I need to have a “Come-to-Jesus” talk. Soon. Currently, I’m not texting him or initiating conversation. I need some space to decide how I feel about us.

In other news, Tonight, I’m going to the Grand Opening of the New Outlet Mall in Gretna (near Omaha)! I know this sounds lame, but its actually pretty exciting! Fashion show, red carpet, and great new shops. We don’t actually have a real high end outlet mall. This is the first of its kind here. Coach, Nike, Under Amour, etc. Good stuff. So yes, lame, but not lame for Nebraska.

Tomorrow night is Froyo with a couple of my Lincoln ladies. I need some girl time. 

Thanks for listening friends. Have a good Thursday!

Life’s rough, get a helmet

I hate this day, this week. I feel like life is just taking a big ol’ crap on me. I just want to cry. Body-wracking sobs that might make things better. But will they? I don’t know. I don’t want to surrender to the tears just yet.

Other times I feel empty. Void of any feeling. But I know I’m not. I know I’m still me there inside. Somewhere.

I took him back 2 and a half weeks ago. It has been good until today. Its a long story. Suffice it to say, he’s an emotional mess. Telling me today that he doesn’t want to hang out this weekend because he’s in a terrible mood and wants some alone time. We’ve been texting for a few hours now; he’s an emotional mess. Needs therapy. Stressed to the max. Feels like he can’t talk to me about the emotional stuff. So then we’re not connecting on a emotional level. I don’t know what to think. I feel like I’m ruining his life. He assures me this isn’t the truth. 

So there’s that.

Between that, my hip still hurts, someone backed into my car last week (got a nice dent in my door!) I had to get a temporary crown on my tooth today because the dentist says there is not a lot of tooth left, so we will start here and go from there. Add my check engine light to that (which I still haven’t gotten that looked at!). It’s been a rough several days.

I need a hug. Or something. 

Really Monday?

I Went to the dentist this morning, I broke a tooth on Saturday. I am scheduled for a crown in a few days. He is reserving the right to change his mind….as there may not be enough tooth left! I might need an implant. That sucks. Luckily it’s a back molar.

Then, as i was heading home i found that my check engine light turned on. I’ve had to get the gas that has 10% ethanol in it. My dad thinks that’s the problem and burned out the oxygen sensor. I’m taking it in tomorrow. Ugh. A crown and car problems? Grrr.

The good news? My hip feels better and I think I can run tomorrow.

Maybe Tuesday will be better!

Wise words from Glamour magazine columnist “Jake”. My friend Gina (who is 48) has been telling me to “keep busy” during my all my dating experiences. She says men find women who are busy intriguing…they want to fight to be a part of our busy lives. I’m taking her advice.

And ya know what?

She’s totally right.

3.1 gorgeous miles this morning! A perfect day for a run. Sunny, breezy and 47°. Love it. The weather is going to turn nasty next week, so I’m going to take advantage of it today!

To the nice man who honked and waved at me: thank you sir, you made my day!

This run wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows however, I think I pulled a muscle in my butt! My right glute is very tight and aches into my hip. That’s new and I think happened as I sprinted across the street during my warmup to avoid being hit by a car! Ugh. That sucks. I’m going to go foam roll now.

Random things: I’m writing this on my phone and I used the speech to text option. When I told it to write the line about my butt, it wrote “b***”! My phone is so proper, it won’t type out butt!

Good stuff! Happy Saturday and Go Big Red!

Two more videos to go and then I’m FREEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

I am so excited! While more video was downloading from Dropbox I: ran (just a mile!), ate dinner and watched Tuesday’s New Girl. I needed some ‘me’ time. Even if it was just 30 minutes. I’m in a good place. 

Random things: my bedroom is freakin’ freezing. The only place for my bed is right up against the north and west facing windows-which apparently leak. So my room is a good 5-10 degrees colder than the rest of the house. And I’m cold all the time, all year round now, so you can imagine what’s happening to me at nights: I have a sheet, 2 blankets, my comforter, another fleece blanket and my robe spread across my bed. And last night I added another blanket to my bed at 1am! I’m also wearing pants, a t-shirt and sweat shirt to bed. Occasionally I have to add socks. This is ridiculous! It’s not even the coldest months yet. Things do not bode well for me. I need to do something about it, stat. Either that, or I’ll be an icicle by December. 

The videos are ready for me to attack! Hope you all have a lovely evening friends!

Let’s do this.

Tall Girl Problems:

This is my view on a daily basis: The “full length” mirrors cut me off at the top of the head…especially when I wear heels. Sigh. First world problems over here.

I’m loving my outfit today! My co-worker keeps telling me how much she likes it too. Made my day! Another said that I strut when I walk wearing high heels! I can’t help it, they make me feel sexy!

All in all, its a decent day. I have one more night of editing and then I’m done! I’m so excited, these past 3 weeks have made me nuts. 

I’m off on Monday-we have another postgame show next weekend so I get an ENTIRE day to myself! Can’t wait! 

Tomorrow night at my PT job the class is sold out…hoping for some decent tips! 🙂

Happy Thursday friends!

Where’d my mojo go?

I’m in a bit of a running funk. I have zero motivation to do it. I ran 2 miles on Monday and a big zilch since them. I’m aiming for a couple tonight. I think the reason is because I’ve managed to overbook myself these past few weeks. 

Lots of work at the PT job, 40+ hours every week at my FT job and now freelancing on the side for hours each night have taken their toll. Something had to give. And it was running. I ran 3 miles last week. 3 measly miles. I feel like a failure. I hate that.

I know that I need to run. I need it for my sanity, to feel good about myself. So that I don’t lash out irrationally at others. But I don’t wanna. I haven’t lost my wagon per se, just am plodding along slowly towing it after me. 

The plus side? I haven’t gained any weight. I consider that a major victory. But if you know where my running mojo is, I’d like it back, thankyouverymuch.

The good news? The freelance projects have to be done by tomorrow night so there’s an end in sight. 

Just keep swimming Melissa. Just keep swimming. 

Well, that’s odd…

I’m off today, so I slept in. When I woke up this morning I was dreaming that I was hanging out with Prince William and Duchess Kate. We were playing mini golf on the roof of this amazing castle in Europe with all these awesome topiaries. 

That’s weird enough in itself. 

But when I woke up, in my dream, the Duchess was trying to KISS me. I was having none of it, and kept trying to move away from her: evidenced by the fact that when I woke up I was thrashing about with my arms out, pushing an invisible person away from me. 

Now I think the Duchess is a beautiful woman, but I don’t have a crush on her. I like men, thankyouverymuch. Wonder what that was all about brain?!

Hmm.

Happy Monday friends!