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Pictures are a funny thing. They freeze a moment in time. And sometimes, they freeze your feelings with them. I changed my Facebook profile picture to the picture of me in the red shirt this morning. I took it last night, after I got home from the Bon Jovi concert.

As I was perusing the other pictures in my profile album, I found this gem. It is from New Year’s Eve 2007 into 2008. I vividly remember that night. There was a boy I liked. He didn’t even know I existed, but I was hopeful that New Year’s Eve would change all that. I feel like I can see the desperation in my eyes. Those feelings still haunt me. I was still so unhappy with my body then. I was even down 80 pounds or even more at the point. I can still feel those feelings when I look at the picture. 

In contrast, when I look at the picture I took last night, I see a happy woman. She’s in charge of her own life. (Perhaps some of that will just come with time and age?) But most of all, I see someone who knows what she wants and is going to get it. That’s the difference. I know how to make my dreams come true now. 

What a powerful feeling.

Over-booking myself and FOMO

I’ve told you in This post that I think I’m an introverted extrovert. I like to be with people most of the time, but find that I definitely need my “me” time and when my weekends are too booked up I get a little growly about it. 

Sunday was go-go-go from the minute I got up. I shouldn’t complain about having friends/plans/and people who want to see me. I went to Church in the morning, then I ate a quick lunch and went to the Pumpkin patch with one of my best friends and her husband:

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After that, I jetted back to Lincoln for the Bon Jovi concert! It was great (I only knew about 7 songs, but wow, the guy puts on a great show! And I was able to take my parents (for free!) so that made it even better. It was nice to be able to do something nice for them for once!)

Now I say this because I DID have a good time, but part of why I accepted the tickets was FOMO (fear of missing out). I do this a lot in my life. I say yes to doing things that I don’t always want to do, just because I don’t want to miss out on things that others are doing. When in all reality, I should just realize that I DON’T actually want to do it, and be okay with saying no. 

It’s a word I’ve got to work on. Saying no to others, and yes to myself.

What a novel concept.

Happy Monday friends! Make it great!

Friday Five

Can you still do this on a Friday night? Whatever, I’m doing it.

  1. I just got home from the Capital Humane Society’s Annual dinner. I volunteered for their marketing team so I went to dinner for free. I ate dinner and now I’m in my PJ’s that say “Santa’s Little Helper” on them. I’ve clearly given up. 🙂
  2. As I was leaving work today my Sales Manager gave me 4 FREE tickets to the Bon Jovi concert at the new Arena on Sunday. The tickets are on the floor and not too far back. I’m excited. I’m taking my mom and dad and a friend. Should be a good time. Free is free, right?
  3. I’m feeling much better. It has been a week. I’ve dealt with some heartache (read: a break-up) and then a subsequent text from him on Wednesday, telling me how much this (the break-up) sucks and that he wants to talk to me, but doesn’t think that’s fair to me. You broke up with me!! Sheesh. I will survive and get through this. I’m strong. The normal happy, positive Melissa is (mostly) back! I missed her.
  4. I am working tomorrow night at Corky-the class is sold out. Fingers crossed for some decent tips. Sunday I’m going to the Pumpkin patch with friends. I was supposed to go with the ex manfriend and these friends. But I just can’t be with him right now…even though he thinks we can still be friends. Not right now and not so soon. 
  5. After puppy-sitting for 5 days I realized something very important about myself: I’m NOT ready for a dog yet. At least not one that needs a lot of work like a young dog. I like my freedom. 

I’m going to read some Harry Potter (I’m re-reading the series. I’m on book 6) and relax. I think I may even take a bubble bath. I’m living dangerously! 🙂 Sometimes a Friday night can be this chill and it’s ok. I think I’m allowed some ‘me’ time. 

Happy Weekend Friends!

Do you ever have those moments? You know the ones I’m talking about. The ones where you unexpectedly look in the mirror and are still so surprised by what you see?

I was changing for my run when I glanced up and saw myself. I don’t see myself as fat anymore. That ended a long time ago. But i don’t always SEE myself, you know?

I sometimes forget what big changes I’ve made. My face changed a lot. My cheekbones popped out. My eyes seem bigger. My jawline more angular. Things like that. I grew my short hair out long…it’s super long now!

Strange thoughts on this Thursday.

Also, thank you for all your kind words on my earlier post. They mean more than you may ever know, friends!

3 for Friday!

Various issues have me up about 5 pounds…but those should go away soon. In the meantime I’m feeling gross. You know when you’re just uncomfortable in your own skin? That’s the feeling I’m having. Please go away soon. K. Thanks.

I finally get 2 days off in a row, but I’m spending tomorrow at Corky…so there goes that! Oh well. It’s fun and money!

Happy Friday friends!

Thursday things

  • Thank you for the kind words on this post. I was not having a good body day yesterday, so your comments made my day! Thank you!
  • I have 9 vacation days left to use by the end of the year. Southwest is having a fare sale. Coincidence? I think not! 
  • Sadly, I can’t afford to go anywhere and stay at a hotel. Who wants me to come visit them in Chicago in December? 🙂
  • I wish I had more money
  • Throughout my run this morning, my toe next to my pinky toe hurt. I could tell my pinky toenail was causing troubles. When I took my shoes off I found I managed to cut my toe enough so that I was BLEEDING! I suffer for my runs apparently.
  • I’m having a girls night tomorrow with a couple of friends/co-workers. There will be Guacamole and Moscato and a movie. I’m pumped. 
  • I really really really really wish I was going to Chicago this weekend. But I work a double at Corky Saturday and I’m really trying to make good life choices when it comes to my finances.
  • Remember the friend that I edit videos for? Well, I’m going to be doing more of that again in these next few weeks. Last year, all that editing earned me over $1500! I’m hoping to hit that number again. This time I will take the money and pay bills. Sigh. Being an adult sucks sometimes. 
  • Random Melissa fact: I do voiceover work for some of the videos as well. If you’d like to hear me, click here. I start speaking at :53 in on my “Ryan” Video. Fun stuff and decent money too!

Well, that’s all I got! It’s Friday Eve Friends!

2 incredibly sweaty miles done!

In the morning.

Before work.

Victory is mine!

It’s no secret that I like to run in the morning, but I also like sleep too. The darkness has made it difficult to get out of bed in the morning. But I got it done this morning! I pulled myself out of bed and went downstairs to my treadmill to get my miles in. I’m so glad it’s done! Even if nothing else goes right my day is a success.

Happy hump day friends.

Blurry photo, cuz I almost got caught!

I’m having a good body day. New outfit FTW! I got the skirt and shirt on sale at Express, and the cardigan at new York and co.
My morning producer said to me: “I didn’t know KFC delivered.”

I had no idea what he meant.
His reply? “You’re serving up some leg today!”
Made my day! 🙂

In other random news, one of my sports guys asked me to sew a button back onto his blazer today. Not sure why he singled me out…but I was able to sew the button on it!

Tonight I’m going to the movie Gravity with my friend Keith. I’m excited!

Happy Monday friends!

Update

  • I went to the doctor on Tuesday. He gave me Prednisone. Awesome stuff. I’m on it for 7 days and 3 days in my hives are nearly gone. There is still a bit of itching. But it’s so much better! Huge relief.
  • I went to the Dentist before I went to the doctor to fix the tooth that I chipped Saturday night. He filled it, but said it might not last, and I should consider a crown. That sucksssss.
  • I work at Corky tonight (they called me in, otherwise I haven’t worked since Sept. 21st!) hoping for some good tips.
  • My mom’s BFF’s daughter-in-law needs some help for an event some night in Lincoln next week. It apparently pays well. I’ve left her a message and am waiting to hear back about it. I’d like to keep on this money train.
  • It’s supposed to get cool here (read: 50’s) this weekend. I’m looking forward to jeans and boots and sweaters and scarfs.
  • In that same vein, I really really really want a pair of red skinny jeans. Like bright red. They are incredibly hard to find. I spent a good portion of my day off driving around Lincoln looking for them. But skinny jeans are hard to find when you have runners calves. That’s rude. I will prevail!
  • Still haven’t decided what do about rude co-workers and ex-coworkers reading this blog. A big part of me says ‘screw you’ and I think I will continue to post as normal. If you are that mean, well, I just don’t understand that.
  • It’s Thursday. Tomorrow is Friday. That’s fantastic!

Have a great day friends!