This has not been a good week

My boss is on a rampage about getting our station website updated. Like a fanatic. The company is so cheap that they refuse to hire a web person, so they just make us all do it, and keep piling more and more onto our plates and want us to do more with less. Everyone is stressed out and cranky. He has yelled at me everyday this week.

Monday he called me into his office, started shouting at me, put his hand up in my face as I started to argue back with him and said to me, “this is a one way conversation.”

I had to bite my tongue to keep myself from saying that wasn’t a conversation then, it was a lecture. We kept yelling at each other, even when a job candidate came and stood in his doorway. I was yelling at him at that point. He tried to diffuse the situation and tried to calm me down, but I was on a roll.

I work 9 hours a day, I eat lunch at my desk EVERY DAY. So I decided, I’m off the clock for an hour at lunch everyday. No one will force me to take a lunch, so I’m going to give myself a break. My boss came out and wanted to talk to me and my coworker about something on our website and I actually said to him, “sorry, I’m off the clock.” And I proceeded to eat and mess around on tumblr. I’m not sure what’s gotten into me! But I like the sassy new me!

He yelled at me yesterday, and again today. This morning when he called me into his office I told him that it had been a crappy couple of days. He told me, “just get over it." 

My mouth dropped open and before I could even think, I said, "Well, that’s real nice.” I was very sarcastic. He told me that was reality. He then told me I should be glad I wasn’t on the conference call with the upper management. I told him that it was better for my health, and really the health of everyone involved that I wasn’t on that call. He didn’t have anything to say to that.

Needless to say, I’m looking for a new job. I don’t get paid enough to put up with this crap.

Thanks for listening friends!

Have a great day!

I’m baaack!

After a much needed long 5 day weekend with a whirlwind trip to Colorado for a friend’s wedding, I’m back! I was off the grid(ish) for 5 days and it was wonderful! I don’t think there is anyway I can catch up on my dashboard after so long, but I hope you all had amazing weeks!

I have some pretty awesome pictures to post. But for now, I have to get to bed…I’ve gotta run 4 miles in the morning!

Have a great night friends!

You gotta raise ’em right…

My 2-year-old nephew and I were looking at pictures on my facebook page the other day. I was pointing at people and asking him who they were. He calls me “Emmie” instead of Melissa and would point at pictures of me and say “that’s Emmie!”

Anytime he saw a picture of me from a race or in running gear he would call me "Go Emmie Go!“

That’s what he was yelling for me at during the Lincoln Half-Marathon this year! Love that kid!

I’ve trained him well.

Its like beating your head against a wall

Boss just told me “We’re all one mistake away from being fired.”

Well, isn’t that a happy thought. I just got out of his office and got done being berated for a fairly insignificant mistake. Which then turned into him telling me I am “too happy and cheerful and make the environment a happy, positive, giggly one.” And he meant that as a criticism! I’m not sure where my guts came from, but I informed him that people do better work when they are happy than they do when you evoke management by terror!

I actually said that!

To my boss.

He just told me to cut the chatter and be a leader.

I don’t think I want to live in a world where happiness, cheerfulness and positivity are considered character flaws. Because as I see it, they are some of the best things about me.

Lincoln Marathon Pictures Are Out…

When I opened my email this morning I had one from Marathon people telling me they had several pictures of me from the Lincoln Half-Marathon for me to buy. Below is a screenshot (with a little doctoring on my part) of what they sent me!

Now, I appreciate that they think I would feel comfortable enough to run a Half-Marathon in only my sports bra. But the fact remains that the first 3 pictures are NOT ME! They finally got it right with the last photo though! The good news? When I clicked on the link to take me to the rest of the pictures there were several more with me in them! And…some other randoms too!

Can’t win ‘em all, right? 🙂

I’m working on my recap! This week has been crazy so expect it sometime this weekend! Have a good one friends!

My 1st Blog-iversary!

Today marks 1 year since my very first post! So much has changed and happened in a year. I’ve started this blog, met some pretty amazing people from the internet, ran some races, a Half-Marathon, 5k’s, and a 10k. I’ve reached my goal weight and managed to keep it all off! 150 pounds gone baby! 🙂

I’ve gone places and lived life to the fullest, and isn’t that what its all about? Enjoying this one life that we’ve all been given? Making the most of our time here, spending it with people that we love and doing things that make us happy? Somehow, along the way, running became something that made me happy.

I firmly believe that its changed my life. I went from weighing 295 pounds and being happy on the outside but desperately wanting a change on the inside. To weighing 145 pounds and being happy inside and out. And running did that for me. It helped me become the person that I truly believe I have always meant to become.

I’m so much happier now, so much more confident. I love this feeling! The happiness that I may have only feigned for the outside world I now truly feel. Sure, I have my down days–we all do. Its normal. But, until I figured out that happiness was a journey, not a destination, I wasn’t going to be happy. And that journey includes running.

Its my time. I can be alone with my thoughts, work things out, make sense of my life or even just my day. I can visualize my next race, see how I think its going to go. And sometimes, I just think about how blessed I am. How wonderful this life truly is. I have legs that run and a strong heart that beats.

This is a random post, but it really is how I feel! The countdown is on to my 2nd Half-Marathon this week…1 week from today we hit the road for the Lincoln Half-Marathon!

I hope you all have a great week friends!

“For a long time it seemed to me that life was about to begin – Real Life.
But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid.

At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.
This perspective has helped me to see there is no way to happiness.
Happiness is the way.

So treasure every moment you have and remember that time waits for no one.
Happiness is a journey, not a destination!”

Souza

Everybody’s workin’ for the weekend…

There is just something so delicious about Fridays. They hold the promise of what a weekend could be. And Friday afternoons? Forget about it. I love those the most! Yes, I’m still at work, and yes I’m counting down the minutes until 5:45pm when I can peace out for 2 days.

I have a busy weekend scheduled, I’m pretty excited to begin tapering for the Lincoln Half-Marathon!

I hope you all have a great weekend friends!

I’ve been a shady lady

I’ve been so sporadic about posting lately, its not even funny. I appreciate you all sticking with me!

Life is good; busy, but good. There are less than two weeks until the Lincoln Half-Marathon. I’m ready. This time around I feel so much more prepared than last year. I did a 10 mile run on Saturday, and would have made it a test 13.1, but the ol’ Nebraska wind made sure that didn’t happen. 25 mph gusts are very hard to run in!

Saturday night I went to Boyz II Men in concert. My TV station GM gave me free tickets. It was awesome! I had a blast! We were only about 11 rows back from the stage.

I don’t think I’ve told you guys, my dad got another job. It involves selling Life insurance and doing a lot of traveling, which is hard for him and my mom. But they are making it work. A job is a job in this economy, right?

Speaking of jobs, I have to get back to mine. Part of the reason I haven’t posted much is because when my hours changed, I lost the time I had to blog at work. I know, I know, I’m not supposed to do that, but it was when I had the time! Also, I don’t know about you all, but after staring at a computer screen all the day, the last thing I want to do when I get home is get on my laptop and write more! But I know I need to write a pretty big post. It’s coming. I promise!

Have a great Tuesday friends! 🙂

Life Update

As Julie recently said, she has pulled away from this community recently. I have too. But not for the same reasons. I’m still training for my 2nd Half-Marathon, and its going well. I’m still maintaining my 150 pound weight loss–I vary between weighing 145 pounds and 148 pounds. I’m just not posting as much personal stuff right now.

I’m wrestling with what this blog is to me. Is it somewhere that I post anything and everything about my life? Do I just talk about running? Because that’s what primarily started out to be; a running blog. Do I talk about my personal life? I just don’t know right now.

I do know that its my own personal corner of the internet. But as I have become more and more brave, more and more people have found out about this place. And that’s what worries me. Will people I know in real life judge me for what I’m saying on here? Do I care if they do? Is this an appropriate place for me to “tell all?” I’m struggling with the answers to these questions.

I hope you all will stay with me as I struggle to define this place, and what it is to me!

Have a wonderful day friends! 🙂

I’m still here!

Life is busy! I’ve found that as the weather gets warmer I am having a harder time finding time to write. Between training for the Lincoln Half-Marathon (I ran 11 miles yesterday. On the treadmill. It was 90 degrees outside!) and enjoying life, spending time with my friends and family, time has been slipping away from me! I’m sorry!

Life is chugging along nicely. I’m happy and things are going very well right now!

Last week, my mom and I took a 3 days off and did a economic stimulating! I bought 3 new dresses, 3 new skirts, 5 new shirts, 2 new pairs of capris, 2 new pairs of shoes and some other things! Everything is size XS or S! How did I get that tiny? It’s hard to believe sometimes.

I hope you all have a great week friends!