I am in a MOOD

I’m dealing with an errant reporter who wants to dig up dirt on sexual assaults on campus. There are three other colleges in the area and we are all emailing back and forth on what to do with him.
I am struggling SO HARD to lose weight. I go up and down a few pounds and subsequently am in a terrible headspace and body image right now.
This gain/loss is despite eating very well, counting calories, macros, etc and exercising more than I have in months.
I’ve come to find out from the doctor that all my weight struggles may be caused by hormonal issues, which explains A LOT. But it just sucks.
Wedding planning is coming along, however, people telling me that they don’t want to go to Mexico because of the violence there or because they’ve already been there once, or telling me that they wish I would have had it in a different location should not even speak to me right now. When did MY WEDDING location become something they get to decide and/or comment on? I’m tempted to tell everyone they are uninvited and we’ll just go by ourselves. Come or don’t come. I don’t care anymore. They’ve ruined wedding planning for me. Thanks.

The one good thing of today–it’s chilly out and I broke out my new riding boots. I love them!!

Stuff and Fluff

Success! I went back to weight-lifting class last night! It was kind rough–I’m not gonna lie. It was also very good to note that, despite being away from it for about 6 weeks, I haven’t lost all of my weight training fitness. Small victories!
However, it did make my easy 3 miles this morning a little rough. My legs were a little tired from all the weighted squats, side lunges and weighted calf raises.
Mornings are hard. Especially when it is still dark outside when you wake up. I need sunshine.
I have no real plans this weekend, except for my regularly scheduled runs. And I’m so. freakin’. excited. Seriously. I need a quiet weekend.
That said, it’s supposed to be 55 degrees here again this weekend. So all the miles will (hopefully) be run outside!
We are looking to hire an administrative assistant at my work. We are severely understaffed and desperately need someone. Today we have the first 3 pre-interview meetings. I’ve only gotten to be on this side of the interview process once before, when I was still at the TV Station. I must say that I like it much better than being the one wanting the job!

It’s Thursday! The weekend is near! Stay strong friends!

“Someday I’ll fly away…”

So my flight got cancelled on Sunday. It was too cloudy. We are making our second attempt this Sunday. Praying for a cloudless, sunny day.

In other news, If I ever say I want to do a full marathon again, somebody please stop me! This schedule is exhausting me, and the amount of running has caused me to gain weight…most likely just muscle mass but I’m still freaking out. The skirts and dresses that I wore last winter are tight now, and I am upset about it. Don’t get me wrong, I’m glad that I have gained muscle, but I’m up 8-10 pounds and I’m trying not to obsess over it, but I hate feeling uncomfortable in my own skin. And I hate knowing that things I wore only 6 months ago won’t fit right now. Its frustrating and disheartening.

I didn’t get up and run yesterday so I shifted my off days and I ran this morning. 4 miles on the treadmill before work. I decided to run them as tempo miles, which makes the run go faster and more fun. I think I’m getting into a training funk, so maybe this will help.

I’m also giving up pop. I only drink 1-2 cans a day but the caffeine seems to really affect me. I am on day 2 without any and am exhausted! And I don’t drink coffee.

My boss texted me Monday and told me that I have to work late Thursday night so that I can produce our Husker pregame show that we are taping that night. Normally wouldn’t mind, but that was the night I was supposed to go speed dating with Lindsay. So I had to cancel, which sucks. They gave me a rain check to go another time, but I was still looking forward to it! Sigh.

Sorry for complaining this entire post friends. But thanks for listening anyway!