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“Patience is the art of hoping.” -Luc de Clapiers

Recently I’ve determined that my entire life is an exercise in patience. I’m being taught how to be patient in every single aspect of my life. For example:

  • I want to make more money/find a better paying job. I’ve had so many interviews where I’ve been told that I’m the 2nd choice. That stings a little. Patience, Melissa.
  • Dating. I have dated so many men and it hasn’t worked out for all of those relationships. So when will I meet “him”? The one? No freakin’ clue. Just be patient I’m told. Easier said than done people.
  • Weight Loss. Even that has required a certain amount of patience in my life. It took me 5 years to lose 150 pounds. I plateaued. I struggled. It was hard. But so worth it. But the key in all of it? I had patience. 

They say good things come to those who wait, and that patience is a virtue.  One of my best friends told me that I “have many amazing qualities, but patience isn’t one of them." 

What can you do but lean on your faith, family and friends when you want something with your entire being and you are currently being told to wait. You may even have a bit of a vague timeline, but each hour and day that passes with no news can make a person crazy! Especially one like me who tends to overthink. I replay conversations, text messages, emails. As much as I want to think positively, hope dwindles as times passes. I wish, hope, and pray for the best news possible and until I get it, I have to have faith.

That’s all I can do.

I’m struggling

Sometimes I think we all show each other what we want others to see on here. A happy, good life. Balance. Prosperity. Kicking butt in workouts.

But that’s not always true. That’s not how its always going. Not for me right now, and not for some of you, I’m sure.

The truth is, I’m struggling. Not with my weight, or with food or exercise. Although my running is spotty at best right now. I’m still doing it. And my weight is fine. That area is fine.

But my personal life? I’m struggling there. Seriously having some troubles. I don’t know what to do to make it right. It is so hard to help when others won’t let you in.

I feel helpless and out of control. Feelings I hate. My first instinct is to help. To talk about it. But that’s not an option. I just have to be patient and wait. I’ve never been very good at that.

I’m a worrier. About anything, things that are beyond my control and things I can control. But the thing is, nothing I do and no matter how much I worry about it won’t change the inevitable outcome (whatever it will be).

Today’s Note From the Universe really hit home today (doesn’t it always?):

Melissa, I want to let you in on a little secret… E V E R Y O N E has issues… everyone. Even those who don’t seem like it. Because without issues, NOTHING WOULD BE WORTHWHILE.

Think about that.

So glad we had this little talk.

Tallyho,
The Universe

 

Prayers Needed!

Without saying much, I could use all the positive thoughts and prayers you want to send my way at 2pm CDT tomorrow! I really need need this and could use some happiness and good news in my life right now!

So I would appreciate any thoughts and prayers you would send my way!

Thanks friends!